I cannot believe that it has been two months since our twins were born! It never ceases to amaze me how quickly time passes when you have children. It’s like a blinked, and two months has flown by!

To be fair, we have had quite the hectic two months. Between doctors visits, visits from family, sickness, and trying to get back into some type of routine, it has been pure craziness around this house.

two months postpartum

If you want to know what happened during the first month after their birth, you can read that update here.

Two Months Postpartum

These last two months for my own recovery have been some of the hardest of my life. While my c-section scar has healed almost perfectly, the aftermath of that has left its own scarring both physically and mentally.

I shared a little while ago about my struggle with Postpartum Anxiety. My doctors are still trying to figure out what is causing all of my physical symptoms, but I most definitely have a severe case of anxiety and depression that I am now battling.

To give you the short story, I have been to a doctor or in the ER at least once a week for the past month. There was one week where I was at a different doctor each day. Literally, some new doctor, doing some new test, Monday-Friday.

I have had to do everything from wearing a halter monitor on my chest for 48 hours (where I also couldn’t shower :/), to having a CAT scan done, to seeing various types of doctor to rule out one major organ at a time. If I wasn’t feeling crazy already, this has set me over the top. halter heart monitor

It has been exhausting to say the least.

Now, along with figuring out all of these other health issues, I have to figure out what to do about my uterine fibroid. The most common answer give to me is to have a complete hysterectomy… I’m just not sure I can A. handle another surgery and B. commit to a hysterectomy at 25 regardless of the fact that we are done having children.

The anxiety and depression has been the worst. I almost feel like I have missed out on these first two months of the twins’ lives because I have just been in a fog. It was something that I was not prepared for at all. I’m praying everything gets figured out soon and next month, I will have a super positive update!

For those that are about to have a baby in the near future, don’t be worried about all of this. While it does happen to some women, I also had two wonderful experiences during postpartum after my 1st and 2nd children were born:) This time has just been different.

Twin Update: Two Months Old

two month old twins

These sweet little babies are doing amazing! They are truly such a blessing and really do complete our family.

Oliver is now 11 pounds and is just the cutest little chunk! Our little man is so strong already. he has been trying to push himself over from his belly to his back already, and has succeeded once. He absolutely loves being on his belly. I cannot believe how big he is already. He will absolutely be a mama’s boy though. He just loves to be held and to cuddle.

My son. That is still so weird but amazing to say.

mother and son

I had to go through and take out all of his newborn sized clothing because he has long out grown those. He was actually in a different sized diaper from his sister for about two weeks, which was really fun for me… 😉

Annabelle is just our little, petite princess. She is a little over 7 and a half pounds and has slowly but surely been gaining after her dramatic weight loss in the beginning. You can see from their one month update, that she IS growing… just more slowly than her brother:) She isn’t quite as strong as he is and is not the biggest fan of tummy time. She does hold herself up really well and has a lot of strength in her little bird legs.

She is much more independent than her brother, and while she does like to be swaddled, where he does not at all, she doesn’t really cry to be held a lot. But, I just love to snuggle her anyways.

three daughters

Three daughters… oh my goodness. I think the Lord is giving me a taste of my own medicine with these three beauties and their attitudes.

*Here’s to the next month going a lot smoother than the first to, and to the continued health of the twins*

joanna at motherhood and merlot