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Two Months Postpartum | Twin Update

I cannot believe that it has been two months since our twins were born! It never ceases to amaze me how quickly time passes when you have children. It’s like a blinked, and two months has flown by!

To be fair, we have had quite the hectic two months. Between doctors visits, visits from family, sickness, and trying to get back into some type of routine, it has been pure craziness around this house.

two months postpartum

If you want to know what happened during the first month after their birth, you can read that update here.

Two Months Postpartum

These last two months for my own recovery have been some of the hardest of my life. While my c-section scar has healed almost perfectly, the aftermath of that has left its own scarring both physically and mentally.

I shared a little while ago about my struggle with Postpartum Anxiety. My doctors are still trying to figure out what is causing all of my physical symptoms, but I most definitely have a severe case of anxiety and depression that I am now battling.

To give you the short story, I have been to a doctor or in the ER at least once a week for the past month. There was one week where I was at a different doctor each day. Literally, some new doctor, doing some new test, Monday-Friday.

I have had to do everything from wearing a halter monitor on my chest for 48 hours (where I also couldn’t shower :/), to having a CAT scan done, to seeing various types of doctor to rule out one major organ at a time. If I wasn’t feeling crazy already, this has set me over the top. halter heart monitor

It has been exhausting to say the least.

Now, along with figuring out all of these other health issues, I have to figure out what to do about my uterine fibroid. The most common answer give to me is to have a complete hysterectomy… I’m just not sure I can A. handle another surgery and B. commit to a hysterectomy at 25 regardless of the fact that we are done having children.

The anxiety and depression has been the worst. I almost feel like I have missed out on these first two months of the twins’ lives because I have just been in a fog. It was something that I was not prepared for at all. I’m praying everything gets figured out soon and next month, I will have a super positive update!

For those that are about to have a baby in the near future, don’t be worried about all of this. While it does happen to some women, I also had two wonderful experiences during postpartum after my 1st and 2nd children were born:) This time has just been different.

Twin Update: Two Months Old

two month old twins

These sweet little babies are doing amazing! They are truly such a blessing and really do complete our family.

Oliver is now 11 poundsĀ and is just the cutest little chunk! Our little man is so strong already. he has been trying to push himself over from his belly to his back already, and has succeeded once. He absolutely loves being on his belly. I cannot believe how big he is already. He will absolutely be a mama’s boy though. He just loves to be held and to cuddle.

My son. That is still so weird but amazing to say.

mother and son

I had to go through and take out all of his newborn sized clothing because he has long out grown those. He was actually in a different sized diaper from his sister for about two weeks, which was really fun for me… šŸ˜‰

Annabelle is just our little, petite princess. She is a little over 7 and a half pounds and has slowly but surely been gaining after her dramatic weight loss in the beginning. You can see from their one month update, that she IS growing… just more slowly than her brother:) She isn’t quite as strong as he is and is not the biggest fan of tummy time. She does hold herself up really well and has a lot of strength in her little bird legs.

She is much more independent than her brother, and while she does like to be swaddled, where he does not at all, she doesn’t really cry to be held a lot. But, I just love to snuggle her anyways.

three daughters

Three daughters… oh my goodness. I think the Lord is giving me a taste of my own medicine with these three beauties and their attitudes.

*Here’s to the next month going a lot smoother than the first to, and to the continued health of the twins*

joanna at motherhood and merlot



  1. you look great! and your little ones are the cutest, boy girl twins are kind of my favorite!
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  2. I am so sorry you’ve been struggling both physically and mentally. i totally understand you aren’t sure about the hysterectomy. All the doctor’s visits also sound overwhelming. I’m glad the twins are doing well though.
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  3. Congratulations Joanna! I missed the posts about you having them! Hang in there with the depression and anxiety!
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  4. Oy, so much for you to go through! I’m glad to hear the twins are doing well. They are so adorable! I’m impressed Oliver likes tummy time. I think that’s the first I’ve heard of that!
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  5. Your twins are getting so big and are so darn cute! I love the pics you post on IG! You look fab, too!! Thanks for sharing your update!!!
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  6. I am just two weeks postpartum so it’s nice to read how other mamas are doing! Your little ones are adorable! I can’t imagine how difficult all those drs appointments and tests must be not only on your emotions but also just with trying to work out a schedule! Hope everything gets figured out soon!!

  7. You look absolutely fabulous and I can’t believe how big the twins are! Sending prayers and love for you that you can figure out everything going on with you so you can just enjoy this time with them!
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  8. You look fantastic! I hope the doctors are able to give you some answers… I am sorry you are dealing with all of this! I think of you often and hope you start feeling like yourself very soon! xoxoxo
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  9. Joanna, I am so sorry to hear of all your struggles. I have been running back and forth to the doctors with my Mom (in the ER herself) and it can be exhausting, both mentally and physically. The not knowing is the worst and probably has much to do with the anxiety. Just know that your blogging friends are praying for you. Here is my favorite quote that always gets me through hard times “Willow trees bend, that is how they survive every storm.”

    Btw, that picture of you and the twins is adorable and you look great for being 2 months postpartum with twins. Take care.
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  10. Sorry to hear of all your stress and having to deal with all that. What a whirlwind. Glad to hear & see your little ones are doing amazing. What a blessing. Stay strong, hoping all works it self out & they don’t find anything wrong. Take care of yourself (hugs)
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